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What are you holding onto?

February 28, 20​19

I am greatly sorry I could not lead our group last night. A rare headache took me out of commission.

Like many women who are overly critical of themselves and find their worth in what they can do rather than in who they are or whose they are, I was so frustrated that I could not follow through on my commitment to lead the group. How could I be so weak as to allow a headache to stop me?

Shouldn't the question be: If I trust God to do what is good for me, and everything indicates I need time for self-care, shouldn't I pause for self-care? The self-care He offers is time away from my to do list and away from my self-criticism to remember I am tied to Him - the giver of all good things.

James 1:17 says "Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change." Matthew Henry points out the sun is the light God spoke into being. The sun does not change though everything on earth can shift and have shadows. God's grace is the same unchanging, unwavering truth even when our circumstances seem to have more shadows than light. His light is there; He is constant. Sometimes, we have to stop for a little while to look for His light and grace in the midst of our struggle. When pausing to turn toward Him, we may find we are struggling against the wrong thing or at the wrong time or attempting too much on our own. Your heavenly father loves you. I pray today you and I are willing to pause in His grace and listen for His voice to lead us to the next right step.